Learning about DID

Hi,
I am a social worker looking
to learn more about DID

Hi Tee. This is Debbie. (Northeast meetup). I'm a multiple too and have been with my therapist for about 11 years. Im 42 and looking for friends to share together what its like to live with multiples. (People who do not have alters just dont get it, you know. :) Looking forward to hearing from you.
Take care of everyone.
Debbie

Hey,

I am 42 in Evansville Indiana and would like to make some new friends, specially those who get it about being multiple. I don't have an official official dx, and my therapy sucks at the moment. I call my system the Orphans because of something my therapist said, and I liked how it sounded and fit.

Lorri

Hi everyone :)

My name is Renee' (body's name anyways) and we are multiple too. Our body is 36 but we have alters with a variety of ages from infants to I think the oldest is 42. Its been really hard for us over the years and we've been diagnosed (dx'd) for at least 10-12 years now, but been in therapy for about 24 years now. We are also bi-polar, major depressive, and have major anxiety disorder also along with major dissociative disorder severe. We actually once had a therapist who INSISTED we give each alter a NAME!!!!! Can you believe that?!?!? Some didn't have names, some did, and some had "descriptions" according to their "jobs." So obviously many names didn't stick and we didn't see that therp very long! We also have one animal inside who is our protector but didn't start coming out until years later after we were away from our main abuser unfortunately

Some problems we have are common for multiples and some aren't. Like we switch when we're in stores and argue about what we want to get, or someone will put something in the basket and the one paying for the stuff won't be aware of it until we're at the register so we'll end up going over our budget or think they charged us more then they were supposed to only to find there was something extra we weren't aware of but quickly forgetting the whole thing, finding we're talking out loud talking to each other in public without reallizing it but then reallizing we are and become embarrassed about it, yet although we do forget things, we do use an electronic organizer so we don't miss appointments and we don't have others who decide to do other things rather than go to appointments (thank goodness). But our husband does get tired of repeating himself and its hard when sometimes he needs to be controlling then he tries to be controlling times he shouldn't be so then we get mad. Its VERY difficult, but we love him to death! And he knew about US before he married us!!!!!! We made sure of that!!!!! Didn't want him to find out later and bail saying he couldn't deal with it!

Well, this outta give you all plenty to read

take care all

Hi, my name is Anne but everybody calls me Terre. I was diagnosed with DID about 15 years ago and I have had several therapists. The one I have now is pretty good and open to everything. I also suffer from depression and suicidal ideations. I know of one other person with DID and she and I talk on the weekends occasionally. She is the only person who truly understands what I am going through right now. My doctor is also very good, she actually listens to me and I am happy with her. I am 50 years old and have a long history of everything from ritual, sexual,verbal, and physical abuse. My personalities range in age from 4 to 19 years of age. I call them my kids, and they all have names.

I can't believe I am on this site. I was dx with DID (MPD) about 4 1/2 yrs ago. I was committed in a state hospital for 31/2 of those years. I have been out since Feb of 04. I honestly thought that possibly the others had gone away. I told them to go away, and I thought they did. I have felt almost entirely single for about 8 months now. I have been steadily recovering from a near life threatening eating disorder. I'm doing amazingly well in that camp and now that things have begun to stabilize, here I am again. I am feeling and hearing them again. And I am constantly running in to people who know me very well. And I have no idea who they are. this has been my life, and I thought I was finally whole, single, one. I know it isn't "en vogue" to say this, but I am upset. I don't know what to do. I can't go back to the hell I came out of. I will not return to that damn hospital (prison). I will not be medicated into oblivion again. And the worst thing is that I do not know of a single therapist in this area I can talk with. People either think I am posessed, lying, weird, have schitzphrenia, or they treat me like a oddity to be studied. I don't want to be anyones guniua pig anymore. I don't know what to do. I feel completely alone with this. How do all of you live with this? I'm tired of being looked at like a freak, and I'm even more sick of having to lie and hide my life and my past. Mikayla

Hi Mikayla (nd Everyone~)
Sorry you are so overwhelmed. I can't speak for everyone, but having a good therapist seems important. And taking one day at a time. With my internal system, we have meetings where everyone gets to share and talk wbout their needs, likes, dislikes, etc. It takes some getting used to and definitely some cooperation, but after trying it many times, it did end up working to keep things calmer on the inside, and outside! I hope this is helpful to you. Stay in touch. Part of the battle is in just not feeling alone in all of this!
Heidi

Hi,

Well, at the moment we're all very confused. It's been a rough day multiple-wise. The message board is reassuring to us as we are feeling very isolated from our outside support system since we moved to Arkansas. We had a wonderful therapist in NC, but the time came for us to move on and we felt we were ready. The change has thrown our entire system into chaos though and we are lonely, frightened and confused.
We go to a new therapist this upcoming week and we aren't sure how it's going to go. The "talk" therapist <psychologist> said that the psychiatrist may not believe that mpd actually exists (the talk therapist didn't even know what DID was, we had to say MPD for her to get a clue) and if he does, he believes it is extremely rare. She (psychologist) wants us to come up with a list of our alts by name. We don't all have names and this frightens us because our last therapist understood this and this one didn't seem to grasp that not all alts need names to exist!
Anyway, we just needed someplace to talk, to vent, where someone might understand. Everyone seems very nice on this message board. We are excited to have found you.
Daphne et al

HI TEE,
I AM TERRE AND I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH DID FOR
MORE THAN 10 YEARS. I HAD ONE THERAPIST FOR THAT LONG BUT WE STOPPED SEEING HIM BECAUSE HE WAS NEVER
THERE FOR US IN CRISIS. MY ALTERS HAD A VERY HARD TIME
WITH THAT BUT THEY FINALLY GOT OVER THAT. MY THERAPIST NOW IS GREAT BUT IN JUNE SHE IS TAKING A LEAVE
OF ABSENCE BECAUSE SHE IS GOING TO HAVE A BABY--MY ALTERS ARE ALL IN AN UPROAR OVER THAT. SOME OF THEM ARE WILLING TO SEE SOMEONE ELSE BUT MOST OF THEM DO NOT WANT ANYONE BUT HER SO I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT. WE HAVE UNTIL JUNE TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS. I HAVE A GREAT PSYCHIATRIST AS WELL, ONE THAT ACTUALLY LISTENS TO US. WE HAVE ONLY HAD HER FOR A FEW MONTHS BUT SO FAR WE ALL LIKE HER. I AM IN THE PROCESS OF INCREASING ONE OF MY MEDICATIONS TO SEE IF I CAN BE MORE STABLE. MY ALTERS DONT INTERFERE TOO MUCH WITH MY DAILY LIVING. I HAVE A JOB THAT I DO AT HOME WITH MY COMPUTER SO THAT MAKES IT EASIER. THE ONLY THING WE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IS KEEPING THE HOUSE CLEAN. I LIVE WITH JUST MY DOG, THAT IS THE THING ABOUT DOGS THEY LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOU. WE HAVE HAD HER FOR 10 YEARS AND SHE IS 11 THIS MONTH. SHE IS OUR BABY, OUR ONE THING THAT WE COUNT ON FOR STABILITY. I HAVE A FEW FRIENDS THAT KNOW ABOUT THE ALTERS BUT THEY DONT SEEM TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT. I ONLY KNOW ONE OTHER PERSON WITH DID AND SHE MOVED AWAY ABOUT 3 OR 4 YEARS
AGO BUT WE DO STAY IN TOUCH, WE TALK ON THE WEEKENDS. MY ALTERS EVEN CALL HER ONCE IN A WHILE. THAT IS KIND OF FRUSTRATING BECAUSE WHEN I COME BACK I AM ON THE PHONE AND I DONT KNOW WHO I AM TALKING TO. MY ALTERS THINK THAT IS FUNNY BUT I DONT. I AM ALWAYS LOOKING TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS WITH DID, THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES THAT TRULY UNDERSTAND. I HOPE THAT YOU WILL REPLY TO THIS MESSAGE.